1. 25
    Jun

    On my second to last day in Hawaii, I went to a luau where there was one couple who was there to celebrate their 55th anniversary. When the host asked the guy what was the key to their success, he said “give and take” This truly touched my heart, because I’ve now learned not to expect the perfect fairytale relationship because that does not exist. Everyone has imperfections but it’s all a part of what makes them beautiful. If all you can do is take, then no matter how much anyone gives, it will never be enough. You will not only hurt those around you, but you will hurt yourself. You will spend a lifetime hurting yourself with the dissatisfaction of never being content. Never seeing the beauty the world has to give. If you can give, then whatever you may take will always be a gift in its own. There is no possible way that their 55 year long marriage was full of sunshine and rainbows but guess what? It was worth it. 

  2. 21
    Apr

    I love movies

    Because for those two hours, you are in a whole new world.

    For those two hours you can experience the love and heartache of another character.

    For those two hours you can see the world as something so much bigger than just you your problems.

    For those two hours you can walk in the shoes of another and see the life of an ordinary person and realize that their lives aren’t at all ordinary.

    That none of our lives are.

    But you also end the movie realizing that your story has just begun (:

    For those two hours, you get hope for the world and hope for yourself.

    Or maybe thats just me (:

    aksdjf;alsdjkf (:

  3. 13
    Apr

    Today,

    In this day alone, I’ve felt so much love from the people around me. My gymfriends , the sisters that I grew up with and the girls that I’ve shared my tears, pain, and laughter with… Libby, the person who has shown me so much love and believes that she can’t find the right words when in reality no words are needed.. Jane, the person who’s always been there no matter when or where or under what circumstances.. 

    Then, just a few minutes ago I decided to go check up on my parents.. I laid down next to my mom and she held my hand. She knows I’ve been having trouble lately and she rested her cheek on my head. I never really realized how much i’ve taken her for granted.. She’s given me so much love.. And i foolishly still find it in me to feel that she doesn’t appreciate me. I know she is strict and expects a lot out of me, but I know it’s because she wishes the best for me.

    Today, I laid down next to my mom and cried at the realization that I may lose her some day. I have so much to be grateful for. I have so much to be happy for. I’m so grateful. I’m so happy to be here.. It’s incredible.. how much one person’s love can change someone’s life.

    I’ve always tried to show people the love that they deserve. But now, I truly know how big of a difference that love can make. 

    At one point, I had the fleeting thought of being scared to love. Love is a scary thing. Whether its love for a friend, love for a parent, or love for a significant other. Love can pierce the heart leaving behind a pain that can not be described or understood unless felt. But, If my love for someone can save them in any way, in the ways that I’ve been saved, then no matter the pain no matter the price I will love as deeply as I’ve been loved. I will love with the passion that I know i have. I will love so that maybe, just maybe, that one person will never have to doubt their ability to be loved ever again. 

    Tonight, I can go to bed knowing that I’ve done what I could for those around me. Even just for today, I’ve done that much.

    And tomorrow is a new day of infinite possibilities. But at least tonight, I can go to bed knowing how much love i’ve received.. and being proud at how much love i’ve given in return.. because i know in my heart that that love is true. 

  4. 11
    Apr

    The world holds infinite possibilities,

    Your greatest regret will be in letting the pain of yesterday stop you from discovering and pursuing the potential joy of tomorrow.

    Yesterday shaped you into the person you are now. Tomorrow gives you hope for the person you will become, and the lives that you may touch.

    And as for today, well.., Look around you and see splendor and beauty in the otherwise small and insignificant things. Look around you, close your eyes, and just listen. You are alive. And that, is the greatest gift of all.

  5. 9
    Apr

    You’re never replaced.

    Just because you’re not perfect for someone.

    Doesn’t make you any less beautiful.

    Just because someone may choose another over you.

    Doesn’t make you inferior to her.

    You need to believe that you will be perfect to someone.

    Happiness will always find its way.

    It will find those who know it’s worth the wait.

    It will find those who learn to smile through the rain.

    It will find those who believe in their own beauty.

    So note to self: You are beautiful too. Don’t let someone make you feel otherwise.

  6. 2
    6
    Apr

    “Brick by brick we can build it from the floor”

    This song, I hope to one day dedicate it to you.

    I can let you go because I know that’s what I need to do for now. But know that you will always have a special place in my heart. Even though our feelings were still young, and maybe not even to the point of true feelings yet; we both cared about eachother.I guess in a lot of ways I needed you to remind me of how beautiful a relationship can be. And you showed me beauty. You showed me all that I had hoped to someday experience. For that, I will keep you in my heart.

    Someday, maybe I can play this song for you. And we can build it from the floor.

    Til then, I will smile through the painful mornings.. and smile into your eyes as your friend. If we shall part ways, that would be such a terrible waste of a beautifully unwritten story, but if we shall part ways..thank you for the memories.

  7. 5
    Apr

    I missed you

    Maybe just as a friend.

    Welcome back (:

  8. 1
    5
    Apr

    “Goodbye my almost lover. Goodbye my hopeless dream.”

    My curse.. is that I care.

    My beauty.. is that I care.

    No matter how long the storm, No matter how hard the storm, No matter how dark the storm. The sun will shine through. Flowers will bloom where life was destroyed. The harder the climb, the harder the fall; the more worth it tomorrow will be.

    You were so beautiful in my heart. Someone who took care of me, in a way that I had not known I’d be lucky enough to experience. What hurts the most, is all that we never had the chance to be. There was a beautiful story left unwritten. 

    But, one thing I do know. Life goes on. With or without me. But i’m in for the ride..I refuse to stop..

    So..”So long my luckless romance” I miss you already.

    I’ve made it this far.. Give me strength.

  9. 1
    5
    Apr

    The world is slowly becoming too heavy for me to carry.

    My tears.. are starting to burn too much to be held in.

    My heart.. is starting to struggle with each morning..

    I haven’t slept well in several days.. 

    I can’t sleep for more than 2 hours at a time..

    I’m on emotional lockdown to survive the day.. physical lockdown to please my mom.

    Only a month.. 

    But how do you shut down your heart for a month.

  10. 2
    4
    Apr

    Just because I cry, doesn’t mean I’m broken.. but keep in mind, that Just because I smile, doesn’t mean nothing’s wrong.

    There are days when you wake up and for a few split seconds, you don’t remember what has happened in the days leading up to this very moment. For those few seconds, you’ve forgotten about all the pain and loneliness you’ve been feeling with each waking moment. For those few seconds, you are so lost, that you feel no pain but no happiness as well. For those few moments, you feel nothing. You are nothing.

    But then, reality settles in; and like a wave, crushes you with its force. In your moments of weakness, when all defenses are down, the reality of your inescapable situation drives a knife deep into your heart and sends a terrible and lonesome feeling to your gut which spreads throughout your body leaving you weak and tired. And even when the walls slowly close over your vulnerable heart, you still feel the pain of that initial stab.

    I know how fortunate I am, to be here, healthy and well; however, just once in a while, I wish that the people closest to me could see the broken beauty behind the smile. Just once in a while, I wish somebody would tell me that the person I am, for all the flaws that I have, is beautiful. That even if I’m not perfect, even if I’m not a genius, and even if I make mistakes.. I’m enough. More than enough, even. I wish that the person who is supposed to understand me the most, would try to understand how suffocated I feel.. I wish that she would understand.. that my smile.. doesn’t always hold happiness. I wish that as my mother, she could just tell me that she loves me.. for the daughter that I am.. for the heart that I have.. for the person I’ve grown to be.. Not for the future I’m preparing to create for myself..

    And Dear ________,

    A puzzle takes time to solve.

    Two puzzle pieces take effort to match up.

    Some pieces of jagged edges, scars from an abusive past.

    Some pieces remain untounched.

    But rather mangled or flawless, both are beautiful.

    Both should not be disregarded.

    And no matter how different, both could be a match.

    The world has laid all odds against us.

    Whether or not this is for the best, I’m not so sure.

    To let go of what can’t happen. Or to hold on to what could have been.

    Which is right..? We may never know.

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